The trauma was never my fault.
But the cycle was mine to break
The forgiveness was mine to choose
The healing was my responsibility to journey

I felt called to make this reel but it`s hard to post, and it`s hard to find adequate words for what I wish I could express. Here goes nothing 🙂

The first half of these clips are from 2019. I had been in a true dark night of the soul for about 4 years by that point, and was desperately trying to survive my 3rd severely abusive relationship, while being a single mom, grieving, and deeply struggling financially.

I look back at that year and it`s nothing but total darkness. I wasn`t suicidal, but I had no will to live. It felt like I was walking around with every bone in my body broken but no one could see the wounds. So you just continue to smile. And cope

I was drinking- a lot. I couldn`t eat. I felt shattered and disconnected to my very soul. Desperate. Searching. Debilitating depression.
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The largest part of my alchemy was picking myself up from the fetal position off the floor, crying so hard it felt like my guts were going to rip open-

And looking in the mirror

I saw my shadows staring back at me.
Asking me to face them.

I saw the parts of myself I had abandoned to survive- asking me to love them.

I had to face the isolation that came from choosing myself
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If you can relate I just want you to know there is the other side.

I want you to know that those who are pulled into more pain have the most potential for purpose

I want you to know that buried in your deepest heartache lies your greatest expansion and opportunity for self love

I want you to know that the only way out is in ✨
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I have spent the last 5 solid years dedicated to reclamation

I am SO GRATEFUL to every circumstance that forced me to choose my power.

I am SO GRATEFUL, that my evolution has lead to a calling that helps other women with theirs

I am SO GRATEFUL, that I had the gym all through those years reminding me that the strong woman I longed to be lived in my bones. I cannot express this enough

I post this all simply to say:

If I can do it, so can you ❤️‍🔥

It`s all for you. It all comes back to you 🪄

Happy Monday 🦋🤗🙏 ...

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✨Gym challenges you to raise your standards for your body and mind

✨Now tell me how that doesn`t ripple effect into your entire life tho honestly 🔪

The boundaries you set
What your settle for
What you demand
What you no longer entertain

Fitness is one of your greatest vehicles for alignment in your entire life baby.

If you`re sleeping on that? You`re missing out big 🫶

Happy November.... let`s fkn go girls!!! 🔥🔥🔥

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When these systems are running inefficiently, it will cause "unexplained weight gain", fat loss resistance, and metabolic dysfunction

🚫 Chronically eating less and less only exacerbates the issue

✅ The fix? Holistic healing🔻

💥 Restoring metabolic function
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I PROMISE YOU: You`re not broken. There`s an easier way... and your DREAM BOD is absolutely possible for you!

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The BEST part is you absolutely CAN thread this approach into any lifestyle, and achieve amazing and sustainable RESULTS 💞

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I don`t just help you build your sexiest bod-

I help you build your self belief

That bullshit glass ceiling you have for yourself?
Let`s blow the fckn roof off baby

🔻

You have 379 workouts and recipes saved. You have some neat freebies downloaded 🤓

AKA: you`re sitting on the fence dressed up as a lot of fancy going nowhere

Knowledge means shit-

Without implementation.
Adherence.
And accountability
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As a women who has invested multiple 5 figures in coaches and mentors (aka in MYSELF) I have this firm belief:

Nothing changes until you get some serious skin in the game

⚡️Put yourself in rooms with people who are doing things that scare the shit out of you.

⚡️With women who blow the glass ceiling off what you currently think isn`t possible for you....

Because F-that

⚡️And yes making a financial investment. Money is energy. And people seem to have plenty of it for vacations, tattoos and clothing hauls. Bye ✌️
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I work with women who have a desire to meet their fullest potential in this life

Does that scare you to claim that?

Good

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HAPPY NATIONAL BLACK CAT DAY 😍🐈‍⬛🥀💖😍 The crazy-cat-women-club is ELITE and clearly we are certified witches (esp black cat women) idontmaketherules 🧙‍♀️🤷‍♀️
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The patriarchy demonized black cats and associated them with misfortune and witchcraft ---

--- They like to do this to anything that actually holds THE HIGHEST POWERS 🙄🙄 so dumb LMAOOOO.

I named my soulmate here "Yoshi" which means "good luck" in Japanese! 🖤

He is truly one of the best things that has ever happened to me. My PROTECTOR. My cuddle bug. My handsome baby panther.

Sadly black cats are the most overlooked and least adopted across shelters 💔 they are also tortured sacrificed by bad bad people this time of year so keep your cats safe and indoors

Black kitties are some of the most LOVING and precious cats with mystical magical powers 🥹

Petition that anyone reading this goes and rescues a black cat! You can thank me later 🖤

LIKE ❣️ if you`re a HOT GIRL CRAZY CAT LADY

🐱🐈🐈‍⬛😻

PS I`m an absolute DOG LOVER TOO bye ✌️

#nationalblackcatday #blackcatappreciationday #blackcatsofinsta #blackcatclub #nationalblackcatappreciationday ...

Me and the boys 👅👅👅

...... They don`t call it resistance training for nothing 🔪💅

Pilates is cute but it wouldn`t combat the centuries worth of oppressed feminine rage I have inside

Yes it is that deep 🔻

▪️Women weren`t even allowed to exercise at all until the 19th century. Fear of our organs being "too frail"..... even though we have the power to CREATE AND BIRTH LIFE. Including every single man ever 🥴

▪️Public displays of sweat were shamed and considered unladylike

▪️In the 40s women were allowed in women only gyms, tho exercise was still limited to passive bullshit that kept women weak.

--> Almost like the patriarchy knows that when a Woman is physically strong, she is better equipped to defend herself- Physically. Mentally. Spiritually
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I can tell you ladies there`s nothing quite so EMPOWERING as strutting into what is STILL a male dominated space-

And lifting pound for pound what they do.
Affirming that you have a RIGHT to be there too

It awakens something. In your soul.

🔥 It`s a reclamation 🔥
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LIFT WEIGHTS 🔻

To honor the women who came before us who couldn`t

To show up for the women who will come after us- counting on us to be STRONG.

To FCK THE PATRIARCHY- that feeds off keeping us weak

Thank you gym 🙏

(And thank you to the MEN who support STRONG WOMEN!)

#strongasamother #womenwholift #strongwomen ...

Men will think this is a joke 😭💅🎀

What else should we add to the list ladies hehe 😆😆

Not enough hours in the day along with being amazing mothers/partners/friends, going to the gym, hitting our protein, goals, running businesses, pursuing our dreams, remembering our whole supplement routine, trying to get enough sleep, and remembering to hydrate 🤪💘💘

To all my ladies out there you`re amazing and we got this!!!! Xoxoxo ...